Howdy friends! Long time no blog... I haven't blogged for about a week? It has been a very busy week for me. From like Wednesday to Friday I have been staying in the lab till 10pm. This is without overtime pay, cause its not really a job, it's called studying. As my friend said, my overtime pay is my data, just don't think about whether it is good or bad data. I am now in the train heading for church as I write this blog. Its 952am, the church service starts at 10am and I will be like 30 minutes late. Honestly I really don't want to go out of my room this early but I really want to go to church. Anyway, this week it has been pretty depressing. I worked so hard for four reactions. One of my target products for this week is ver difficult to purify. I hate the sticky caramel like byproduct which formed; it is very ver very difficult to separate. I got a low yield 29%. And that sucks. I used 200mg for the next reaction. Starting material was NMR pure; I don't know why the next reaction I only got 5 % yield. It brings me so much pain. I know I did everything right!!!!!!!!!! T.T anyway what the hell..,, organic synthesis - sometimes you just can't tell what will happen even though you've tried the same reaction n times. Oh that's lab life. I know it's Sunday a rest day but my mind can't stop thinking about my result and it's getting really annoying. I really want to run back to the LAb now and do my experiment, but that wouldnt really make a balanced life would it? I want to have a balanced life. I really dont know if my life is balanced now, but at least in my perspective it is. I try my best to maintain it. Now I feel like someone shot me. I feel like I want to lie down in my bed for a whole day and do nothing, but that would also kill me - wastin time. I ha e a deadline to beat my time is running so fast. I have to finish this comp soon. I know my sensei is waiting for it really patiently. Everytime I get bad results I sort of feel like I am the scum of the earth. I feel very bad. This is why I am depressed this week. I want to be smarter!!!! I want to be more skilled!!!! Ughgggggghh..., T.T I don't want to let my sensei down I am working my best here.... My phone bat is now 61% I have to save it till tonight. Back to blogging later!!!