April 8, 2012 (Sun)

Hello Easter Sunday! It's a nice warm spring day today.  Research progress went smoothly, until that fateful day...

me:  the C.A. derivative is brown.
lab mate:  brown? no no no, it's not supposed to be brown, it is supposed to be colorless.
me: what? but i always get brown.  Since the first time i synthesized this compound (which was like since forever), I've been getting brown.  (It just can't be colorless).
lab mate:  no, i will show you a pure stored sample *searches in the fridge* there we go!  (got a sample tube with a small amount of crushed colorless crystals labeled with CAder)
me: eeek. speechless (i felt that i was about to die)
lab mate: @_@


Okay.  So since that fateful day, I had to go back to my scheme.  And since that fateful day, my research has not yet progressed smoothly as before.  I just feel like total garbage because I have to do it all over again.  The bright side, however, is that I learned my lesson.  A lot of lessons, actually.  But what kind of expensive mistake is this?!?!   It destroyed my hopeful spirit T_T

Yesterday, ah no, last friday, my professor saw me reading some literature and told me he wants to have my compound.  At that point, I just melted right there.  I know its already taking forever.  I know, I know I almost got to the end.  but I made a huge mistake in the middle, and so now i have to start from the beginning.  Why, my whole world crumbled down when I heard him say that.  In reply, I just explained to him about my mistake, and said that I was sorry and I will work harder.  But I AM already working hard and actually
I don't know how to work harder.  geez.

Please God help me with my research.  I want to get my compound as soon as possible.

I even have a deadline to beat.  My progress report is in around 1 month.  I really want to present some good data and a PROGRESS report --- the way my research PROGRESSED, not the opposite.

I was feeling rather sad about my research but i can't do anything except to go back down to my scheme and wait.  I am a "homey" person -- in my definition it means "one who likes to decorate the house."  I dont know why but i feel happy when i decorate a house and make it more "homey." Yesterday I rearranged the furniture in my small home.  What I like best is the comfort room.  I made it look like a pretty room, far from what it was before.  I placed a framed picture of Johnny Depp (quite odd to put it on the bathroom wall).  It's so pretty in fact, I'm ready to accept guests in my small home.  I'd be delighted to invite someone over.
Anyway, I put all my energy in rearranging and pushing all the furniture all around the house last night for about 2 to 3 hours.  when i was about to sleep i was tired and happy. :-O

Okay time's up its almost 9, I gotta clean up and go to church.  see you later, alligator! :D