1.31.2013

Just any ordinary Lab day.

Now i dont want to start sounding depressing.  it's exactly 1:56pm in the lab right now and the silence is deafening.  The only thing i can hear would be the sound of the glasswares clashing towards one another as they are being used by an undergraduate student quietly working on his bench.

I really enjoy this work, i enjoy being a chemist and living in another country.  I enjoy this experience and this journey. But sometimes, this just get more toxic than usual.  I sleep 6 to 8 hours per day and i know its enough, but sometimes i just dont want to move at all.  I want to stay steady and just relax and think of nothing.  No deadlines in my head.  Nothing that I have to do.  Just sleep and rest.  Its not really good to do that all the time but it's just that now, all i wanna do is take a time out.  take a break.

To be honest, in my lab, i never really have a friend to talk to.  I dont want to sound like a loner but its just the way they work here.  Its the culture.  Theres no change,  everything's so serious and quiet.  When i first came here i think i might have sort of disrupted that culture here, but after a while i followed suit and became like one of them.

I could remember a song my mom and dad let me hear, the title is I am not a Robot.  Well totally matches this situation.  everyday is like the same, there is no change. nothing different about anything.  Just the sound of the typing and the glasswares.  Nobody talks and theyre scared of you cause youre a senpai girl foreigner who speaks in English.  What the hell.

I wish I could have a friend here who would just talk and be , well, human enough to communicate. It is already difficult living in another country, and without a friend, it becomes inhumane.  Sheeze....

By the way, to balance it off with some good news, i finally succeeded in getting my target compound although i have less than 10mg of it.  But it is still an accomplishment nonetheless.. Love that i got it and confirmed it by spectrometers and voila.  I got it.  Love of my life.  I got it last monday, 1.28.2013. It seems to be the happiest day in my lab life, thus far.  But im far from done.  I have to make 100mg of this at least and get some good ol crystals.  Far from done.  Far from next target.  Well at least i got it.  ;D


Till here then, i gotta check on my evaporator.