I love my job!!!

 Hello,

I feel like blogging today.

I just had lunch and over lunch I have imagined a very interesting idea.

When I woke up today, I didn't actually feel like going to school.  I feel so sleepy and I really want to stay in bed.  I want to rest and pig out!!

When I reached school, I was still sleepy.  I took another cup of coffee to fight the drowsiness away.  Then I started to work.  When I touched the glasswares and my compound in the flask I started to feel elated for some reason.  Then I started feeling like I am a super chemist, like those seen in the movies.  The scientists who knows which bottle to get, or which powder to use, or which chemical to put and add in the reaction.  I felt like being watched by myself, doing my experiment, and I could feel that I was “cool.”  I feel exactly like Dexter (Dexter’s Lab) the cartoon I used to watch back then.  I started touching other flasks and putting liquid nitrogen in the trap for vacuum line, then I started doing column chromatography.  I started getting hexane and pouring it down the column and watching all the air bubbles go away as I poured the colloidal silica gel.  I started to feel like I was this amazing chemist who always knew what to do.

Then… just then..

I realized that I love chemistry.  I love my job.  It must be true.  I mean, I go here everyday without feeling these things that drove me off to my amazement.  I go here everyday without talking to anyone and just doing my work.  I never get tired of this chemistry.  Thank God, even though I didn't end up in medicine school as I have originally planned, I still ended up in a field that I really enjoy so much.  Why, I never saw how much I am inlove with my job until now.  Why did I miss the point???  All my lab life, I kept on ranting about not finishing my compound.  But I realize now that, its not the point.  The point is not rushing things and finishing it soon.  The point is loving the craft.  The point is taking care of each step, summarizing it, thinking about it everytime like I am married to my chemistry.  I just realized today, how much I love my job. 

Chemistry, I love, I love, I love you… I never wish to be parted from you for the rest of my life. Mwah <3